[Jesus. He thinks, but doesn't say. He's recovering from the spread of her legs and the beautiful noises, the dirty talk almost makes her threat become a reality. He presses his lips together firmly, looking briefly like he's in physical pain from how badly he wants to finish.
The car starts to rock from his motions, the speed increasing. He thrusts harder and deeper, skin smacking harder together. He dips his hands under her knees, pulling her flush against him as he pulls upward so he's back on his own knees. As she falls away from him, he hooks her knees over his shoulders and starts to pound his cock into her. The grip on her legs is tight, he's biting the inside of his lips and groaning hoarsely.]
[ He likes this fantasy as much as she does. She can tell.
Love is the Drug croons over the truck speakers, but all she hears is him, his sounds, his rasping question. And herself, moaning and crying nonstop, and scrabbling for purchase in the blankets at the change in position, one hand smacking a pillow.
She nods erratically, but he might not be able to tell, he's fucking her so roughly, pounding into her, stimulating that sweet spot. ]
I want to have your baby. Then I can carry a part of you with me. [ He'd said she would beg and now she is. She's getting dangerously close, starts to tense, her cunt beginning to flutter. ] Please, please. Daddy, please.
[Cable's breathing grows laboured and erratic as he struggles to restrain himself. His earlier prediction was an optimistic one, but she's making it come true. It's hard not to think she's something he's dreamed up for himself, she feels perfect. She's perfect.
He palms his hand up her abdomen, cupping over her stomach.]
Jesus, baby. You're driving me fucking crazy. [He bites down on his bottom lip harder, taking his frustration out through the pace of his thrusts.]
I'll give you all the kids you want if you come for me again.
Her eyes strain to stay open, but they fall shut as she veers toward the edge again, her cries of unabashed pleasure crescendoing louder and louder. Right before, the muscles in her thighs and calves tense, her hands flail and hit the interior of the truck to brace against it.
ohgodohgodohgod
She comes harder this time, pleading with him not to stop, a rush of wetness coating his cock. ]
[It would be terribly, terribly easy to finish in her. He wants to finish in her. Ruin her properly. She squeezes and grips him so tightly, it's like she wants it too.
Nate stubbornly obliges when she pleads for him to continue, pounding against her until the absolute last second. With a frustrated sound, he withdraws and thrusts his cock over the lips of her pussy. He comes up her abdomen and stomach, fucking himself against her wet folds while his cock twitches against her.
Finally he stops, grasping at her legs as he shudders out short, sharp breaths. He looks absolutely shattered, but a smile pulls at his lips as he looks down at her. With little regard for smearing his load between them, he drops her legs and crawls over the top of her. He bumps his forehead affectionately against hers before pressing a firm kiss to her temple.
He's not going to delude himself into thinking a girl her age wants a serious relationship with a man his age. It's a terrible idea. But for now, he's enjoying playing pretend.]
[ She's still shaky when he climbs over her. She folds herself into him, with equal lack of regard to the cum all over her as he settles next to her and she burrows her face against the junction between shoulder and chest.
In this moment, she feels especially vulnerable, stripped clean of all pretenses. In this moment, she could easily mistake the aftereffects of release and the surge of emotion for genuine affection, the beginning of love. It would be foolish to believe it, but she still seeks tenderness, kissing his neck.
She ought to feel some sort of embarrassment for the things said in the heat of fucking. Under other circumstances, she would want to hide away forever. Strangely, the embarrassment doesn't come.
The smell of him, sweat and liquor and soap, fills her lungs and clouds her judgment. She brushes her fingers over his chest, tracing a scar. ]
Thirsty, [ she admits. Not that kind of thirsty. But also. Yes, that kind. She turns her face up, the interior lights bringing the brown out in her eyes. ] Happy. Maybe a little sore.
[Although very sure this is casual, it's hard to pretend his mouth doesn't hurt from smiling more than he has in years. Hard to believe she has this kind of effect on him already. Embarrassing, really.
His hand dips to rest over hers, clasping it over his chest for a moment before sliding his fingers up her arm and shoulder. He cups her face, kissing her gently. He's making an idiot of himself, but he still wants more of her. He pulls back, pleased with her response though a little concerned.]
I can get you a drink. [His voice lowers, brushing his stubbled jaw against her cheek.]
[ She feels a little drunk off him and this experience, really. She hasn't really processed what just happened, even though she can feel it in her hips and the very center of herself.
The kiss is more tender than anything. She melts into his calloused palms and his hot mouth. Huffs a laugh, nose wrinkling, eyes shining with mirth and tenderness. She understands what he's suggesting. It's an incredibly pleasing idea he volunteers. ]
That is a tempting proposition. [ She noses him back, raising her hand to brush the back of it against his cheek. She's not saying no. ] Water first, perhaps?
[From then on, it's a lovely rotation of hydrating, napping in a tangled embrace and some sort of sex. Oral, coaching her through a handjob, fucking her again. The second time he comes, it's an even closer call. He paints the inside of her thighs.
Absolutely boneless and exhausted, Nate finally pulls the blankets over them and draws her in with his arms around her middle. It's been years since he's spooned anyone, but she's a perfect fit. Sleeping with her in his arms feels good, so does waking up a few hours later with her still there.
He presses his lips to the back of her shoulder, she doesn't rouse. She mentioned having to be somewhere tomorrow. Today. He glances at the clock. So does he. Soon. He doesn't want to wake her when she looks so peaceful, but god he wants to feel her one more time. He shifts her gently, lifting her thigh so he can hilt his cock into her pussy.
Somehow, even though this feels extremely depraved, he feels he knows she'll invite it. That part of her enjoys being used for pleasure, in the right context. So he helps himself, starting to pump his cock into her and rub her clit. The hand under her curls around to pinch at one of her nipples. Something about using her body drives him absolutely insane, enough for him to tip her so she's on her stomach and he's fucking her into the mattress.]
[ He exhausts her. That's how it feels, anyways, despite his nearly thirty years on her. He's fucked her good and proper, driven her to climax four times before she collapses into sleep. That good, deep sleep, no dreams she can remember, simply blackness like a weighted cloak.
Which is to say, Francesca doesn't wake quickly, not when he adjusts her, nor when he notches his cock into her opening and begins to use her to his discretion. A few minutes pass before her body gets the memo and she stirs. Hazily, so aroused it nearly hurts, whining sleepily and half-sure this is a sex dream.
Her mind is slower to wake than her body: her ass already rising to meet his every sharp movement. He's caged her against the mattress, she dimly realizes. Her knees dig in, pelvis tilting to to better his strides so he fucks against her g-spot, her fingers fisting in the blankets. ]
Fuck. [ She's not one to curse often, it sounds especially lewd on her proper tongue. ]
[Nate struggles to get a clear read on Francesca. Whether she's actually a nympho and this is just another day for her or if she's just a wallflower that needed some encouragement. He leans to the latter, which makes his gut twist with arousal for her. It makes him feel some ownership of her, which he's truly coming to enjoy.
He can feel the signs that she's waking up, only briefly amused that she accepts it without admonishment. Maybe he shouldn't leave this at one night. Maybe he should take her home and do this every day. Seems reasonable, when he's this deep in her.]
Morning. [Breathless, but still sly. His hand is wrapped around her, stimulating her while he fucks her.]
You feel too good. Needed to feel you again. [His arms tighten around her, pressing kisses to her neck.]
[ She doesn't want this night to end. Under him, with only the hints of sunlight filtering through, it seems possible. Like she won't have to go back to the real world, her real life where something feels missing.
He can keep kissing and fucking her. They won't have to part, let the light in.
Her pulse quickens at his words, wicked as they are. She turns her head, moaning as he rubs up and down her clit, slick with how wet she is. Her brain is lagging from sleep and arousal; her inhibitions lowered, she murmurs her answer between shallow breaths. ]
[Nate's blood feels firey hot when it pumps through his veins. He feels intense pleasure at her words, then the ache of wanting to finish in her follows.
He can only articulate an urgent grunt as he bites the back of her shoulder. Not hard, but he needs to ground himself. His hips are moving of their own accord, sharp enough to make her bounce under him.]
I want to keep you. Like this. [His hand shifts up so he can squeeze her breast, grinding into her as he does.]
[ She hopes it'll bruise, mar her white skin, so she'll wear the indention of his teeth like a mark of ownership. Maybe it won't; but there's something as good, even better. His question coaxes it out of her alongside her desperate whines and whimpers. ]
I want -- [ He moves like he can find a way to worm inside her. She's started to anticipate when he's about to come. Her hand reaches to slip into his hair, finding a home there to grip. He's driven her to want things she has only ever admitted to herself, in the dark, fingers inside herself. ] I want you to stay inside me when you come. Don't pull out this time.
[It doesn't take much more than her words to tip him over, but the hand gripping his hair does it. The way she clenches and her body holds him in place is incredible-- she wants him like that. That badly. They're both playing a dangerous game but he might as well be deaf and blind from his obsession with her. He cannot hear or see reason. It's only been one night and he wants to do everything to her.
His cock twitches and his hips rut deep into her. His foot grinds into the mattress as he has the most intense climax of the night. It feels endless and too short, he sucks her skin and growls as he releases inside of her. He immediately knows it's fucked up, which makes it feel incredible. His fingers spread over her pussy to stroke her lips and her clit as his hips buck erratically.]
[ She doesn't climax right as he does, but the trigger is the twitching of his cock, the length and heat of his release flooding her cunt tips her over for the fifth time. Hers is not the same intensity as his, she doesn't make much noise, she barely makes more than a choked breath, her toes curling. But it's what she needs.
Clarity rushes in, but regret doesn't ruin the moment. When it ends, she sags into the mattress. By now, the truck smells of sex, and the sun is starting to peek over the horizon and through the trees.
She listens to his struggling breaths until they even out and he stops panting. Stupidly, she imagines him taking her home. Imagines him calling her my girl, my baby with more than mere lust to slake. It's a guilty fantasy that she keeps to herself, but it bleeds into her utterance of his name, gentle reverence. ]
[The way she says his name makes him want to wake up like this every day, which feels terribly stupid. It gives him a little bit more warmth before he starts to feel regret slowly seeping in. Subtle, drowned out by the glow he still feels with her in his arms.
He withdraws, drawing her backward to spoon on their sides again.]
Francesca. [There's sort of an authoritativeness when he echoes her with her own name, but it's painfully fond. Even if he's cringing into her hair.]
That was stupid. You make me stupid [But his arms tighten protectively around her.]
It was stupid. [ She can't help but agree. It was a foolish and utterly irresponsible thing to do, but... well. She doesn't regret it. No point in beating themselves up over it either.
Her face presses into the arm under her head. He'll be able to feel her slow, lazy smile. ]
Bit ... messy, you know, but it felt nice. [ No messier than his first two orgasms, first over her stomach, then on her thighs. She thinks he even managed to get some on her sweater.
She even enjoys the sensation of him leaking out of her, squirming slightly. ] It's fine, really. I can get the pill.
[ Oh. That earns him a wider smile. Her fingers lace through his own, squeezing gently. She doesn't carry on protesting, his voice brooks no arguments and the thought of him caring for her scratches an itch on her brain.
They're quiet for a while. She doesn't fall back asleep, but her eyes grow heavy. Buttery light seeps in tinted windows. Morning birds replace the hoots of owls.
[Nate is painfully aware that he needs to do a variety of things in a very short amount of time-- and the first day of semester is not the day he wants to be late. Sets a terrible precedent.
And yet, he lingers for way too long. Breathing in the smell of her hair and appreciating how nice it feels to have a warm body in his arms. That they can lie here in silence. Awake but not compelled to speak and risk losing a second of this.
Then, regrettably, they both wriggle into their clothes and slip back into the cab. There is some idle conversation, about the book and the town. Nate parks and jogs into the chemist, returning with a confident stride as he pulls himself up into the truck and offers her the small paper bag.
He drops her off and he feels terribly fucking sad.
After a quick trip home, a shower, a rushed breakfast and an even quicker drive in, Nate is striding into his classroom with a minute to spare. It's not like him. He likes to be early. He sets about setting himself up, glancing down at his computer and not watching the students entering the room.]
[ Francesca doesn't notice him as soon as she enters the room. She's preoccupied with setting up her own workspace, and distracted besides. Under-caffeinated, somewhat achy from a night of having her body used, mixed with little sleep.
She's lost to wandering thoughts, too, of the stranger, and a peculiar weight in her chest. One of already missing him, her mind buzzing excitedly whenever it strays to him -- which is frighteningly often.
When her head jerks up, it's at the sound of his voice. She freezes, her heart rate picks up, half-sure she summoned him, surprise and joy writ across her face. Tempted to stand and run down to him.
In the next instant, her mind begins to comprehend his presence.
She hadn't gotten his last name. She'd forgotten to ask, somewhere between the second beverage and his face between her legs.
In a clumsy moment of negligence, her pens take a tumble off the desk, crashing down the steps, turning several pairs of eyes her way. ]
[It's hard to concentrate on lecturing, but he has to. Even if his extracurricular activities were exciting, he is interested in his job. Once he settled into the rhythm of it, it's easy enough to set aside what happened last night. He's sure later he'll think more about how they should have exchanged numbers and if he should have kissed her when he dropped her off.
When it seems like he might manage to get through this, he's distracted by the clattering of pens rolling down the stairs. He's standing, so it only makes sense that he should pick them up.
It's when he's standing, pen in hand, that he realises where it came from. Who it came from. Jesus christ. He's frozen a moment and, in that moment, he does not look happy to see her. He needs to follow this through, so in total silence he walks to her desk and sets the pens down firmly.
He barely looks at her, turning away and continuing the lecture.]
[ Her heart thumps in her throat, lips involuntarily tilting toward a smile and abruptly folding at the dour look that meets her. She takes it for displeasure immediately, and spends the rest of the lesson trying to reason with herself it wasn't aimed at her. It's just uncomfortable, after the night they spent together.
But she's acutely aware of how he doesn't acknowledge her at all, his eyes swimming past her in the crowd of faces. Difficult to ignore the growing trepidation in her gut, the slow gather of storm clouds. The sense she's done something wrong.
He's an efficient teacher, doesn't mince words. Something she finds refreshing. The lecture ends early. She lingers afterward, slower to let the rest to disperse. Alone, she picks her way down the steps, stopping to stand a polite distance away.
Clears her throat. ]
I'm -- [ she begins, her voice weak, fingers clutching her bag strap. Much like a chastised child. ] sorry. For disrupting you in the middle of your speech.
[It is extremely difficult to proceed onward, but the only way to stop himself from showing recognition or being flustered is to ignore her.
He can't help notice her lingering, he sees her past the shoulders of a student approaching him with questions. When they leave, he's trying to gather his things as quickly as possible so he can avoid this interaction.
It pains him deeply to hear the tone of her voice, so different from this morning. He knows he's different too, he can't be that person here. He's yanking his jacket on as she speaks, a convenient excuse not to look at her.]
Don't worry about it. [It doesn't sound as reassuring as the words should be.]
I can't stick around. [He hopes that should make it quite clear, that they can't talk here. That he doesn't want to talk here.]
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The car starts to rock from his motions, the speed increasing. He thrusts harder and deeper, skin smacking harder together. He dips his hands under her knees, pulling her flush against him as he pulls upward so he's back on his own knees. As she falls away from him, he hooks her knees over his shoulders and starts to pound his cock into her. The grip on her legs is tight, he's biting the inside of his lips and groaning hoarsely.]
You want to get knocked up that bad?
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Love is the Drug croons over the truck speakers, but all she hears is him, his sounds, his rasping question. And herself, moaning and crying nonstop, and scrabbling for purchase in the blankets at the change in position, one hand smacking a pillow.
She nods erratically, but he might not be able to tell, he's fucking her so roughly, pounding into her, stimulating that sweet spot. ]
I want to have your baby. Then I can carry a part of you with me. [ He'd said she would beg and now she is. She's getting dangerously close, starts to tense, her cunt beginning to flutter. ] Please, please. Daddy, please.
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He palms his hand up her abdomen, cupping over her stomach.]
Jesus, baby. You're driving me fucking crazy. [He bites down on his bottom lip harder, taking his frustration out through the pace of his thrusts.]
I'll give you all the kids you want if you come for me again.
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Her eyes strain to stay open, but they fall shut as she veers toward the edge again, her cries of unabashed pleasure crescendoing louder and louder. Right before, the muscles in her thighs and calves tense, her hands flail and hit the interior of the truck to brace against it.
ohgodohgodohgod
She comes harder this time, pleading with him not to stop, a rush of wetness coating his cock. ]
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Nate stubbornly obliges when she pleads for him to continue, pounding against her until the absolute last second. With a frustrated sound, he withdraws and thrusts his cock over the lips of her pussy. He comes up her abdomen and stomach, fucking himself against her wet folds while his cock twitches against her.
Finally he stops, grasping at her legs as he shudders out short, sharp breaths. He looks absolutely shattered, but a smile pulls at his lips as he looks down at her. With little regard for smearing his load between them, he drops her legs and crawls over the top of her. He bumps his forehead affectionately against hers before pressing a firm kiss to her temple.
He's not going to delude himself into thinking a girl her age wants a serious relationship with a man his age. It's a terrible idea. But for now, he's enjoying playing pretend.]
How're you feeling?
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In this moment, she feels especially vulnerable, stripped clean of all pretenses. In this moment, she could easily mistake the aftereffects of release and the surge of emotion for genuine affection, the beginning of love. It would be foolish to believe it, but she still seeks tenderness, kissing his neck.
She ought to feel some sort of embarrassment for the things said in the heat of fucking. Under other circumstances, she would want to hide away forever. Strangely, the embarrassment doesn't come.
The smell of him, sweat and liquor and soap, fills her lungs and clouds her judgment. She brushes her fingers over his chest, tracing a scar. ]
Thirsty, [ she admits. Not that kind of thirsty. But also. Yes, that kind. She turns her face up, the interior lights bringing the brown out in her eyes. ] Happy. Maybe a little sore.
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His hand dips to rest over hers, clasping it over his chest for a moment before sliding his fingers up her arm and shoulder. He cups her face, kissing her gently. He's making an idiot of himself, but he still wants more of her. He pulls back, pleased with her response though a little concerned.]
I can get you a drink. [His voice lowers, brushing his stubbled jaw against her cheek.]
And I can kiss it better.
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The kiss is more tender than anything. She melts into his calloused palms and his hot mouth. Huffs a laugh, nose wrinkling, eyes shining with mirth and tenderness. She understands what he's suggesting. It's an incredibly pleasing idea he volunteers. ]
That is a tempting proposition. [ She noses him back, raising her hand to brush the back of it against his cheek. She's not saying no. ] Water first, perhaps?
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Absolutely boneless and exhausted, Nate finally pulls the blankets over them and draws her in with his arms around her middle. It's been years since he's spooned anyone, but she's a perfect fit. Sleeping with her in his arms feels good, so does waking up a few hours later with her still there.
He presses his lips to the back of her shoulder, she doesn't rouse. She mentioned having to be somewhere tomorrow. Today. He glances at the clock. So does he. Soon. He doesn't want to wake her when she looks so peaceful, but god he wants to feel her one more time. He shifts her gently, lifting her thigh so he can hilt his cock into her pussy.
Somehow, even though this feels extremely depraved, he feels he knows she'll invite it. That part of her enjoys being used for pleasure, in the right context. So he helps himself, starting to pump his cock into her and rub her clit. The hand under her curls around to pinch at one of her nipples. Something about using her body drives him absolutely insane, enough for him to tip her so she's on her stomach and he's fucking her into the mattress.]
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Which is to say, Francesca doesn't wake quickly, not when he adjusts her, nor when he notches his cock into her opening and begins to use her to his discretion. A few minutes pass before her body gets the memo and she stirs. Hazily, so aroused it nearly hurts, whining sleepily and half-sure this is a sex dream.
Her mind is slower to wake than her body: her ass already rising to meet his every sharp movement. He's caged her against the mattress, she dimly realizes. Her knees dig in, pelvis tilting to to better his strides so he fucks against her g-spot, her fingers fisting in the blankets. ]
Fuck. [ She's not one to curse often, it sounds especially lewd on her proper tongue. ]
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He can feel the signs that she's waking up, only briefly amused that she accepts it without admonishment. Maybe he shouldn't leave this at one night. Maybe he should take her home and do this every day. Seems reasonable, when he's this deep in her.]
Morning. [Breathless, but still sly. His hand is wrapped around her, stimulating her while he fucks her.]
You feel too good. Needed to feel you again. [His arms tighten around her, pressing kisses to her neck.]
Do you like it when I help myself?
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He can keep kissing and fucking her. They won't have to part, let the light in.
Her pulse quickens at his words, wicked as they are. She turns her head, moaning as he rubs up and down her clit, slick with how wet she is. Her brain is lagging from sleep and arousal; her inhibitions lowered, she murmurs her answer between shallow breaths. ]
I'm yours. You can do whatever you want to me.
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He can only articulate an urgent grunt as he bites the back of her shoulder. Not hard, but he needs to ground himself. His hips are moving of their own accord, sharp enough to make her bounce under him.]
I want to keep you. Like this. [His hand shifts up so he can squeeze her breast, grinding into her as he does.]
And I want to know what my girl wants.
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I want -- [ He moves like he can find a way to worm inside her. She's started to anticipate when he's about to come. Her hand reaches to slip into his hair, finding a home there to grip. He's driven her to want things she has only ever admitted to herself, in the dark, fingers inside herself. ] I want you to stay inside me when you come. Don't pull out this time.
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His cock twitches and his hips rut deep into her. His foot grinds into the mattress as he has the most intense climax of the night. It feels endless and too short, he sucks her skin and growls as he releases inside of her. He immediately knows it's fucked up, which makes it feel incredible. His fingers spread over her pussy to stroke her lips and her clit as his hips buck erratically.]
Fuck.
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Clarity rushes in, but regret doesn't ruin the moment. When it ends, she sags into the mattress. By now, the truck smells of sex, and the sun is starting to peek over the horizon and through the trees.
She listens to his struggling breaths until they even out and he stops panting. Stupidly, she imagines him taking her home. Imagines him calling her my girl, my baby with more than mere lust to slake. It's a guilty fantasy that she keeps to herself, but it bleeds into her utterance of his name, gentle reverence. ]
Nathan.
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He withdraws, drawing her backward to spoon on their sides again.]
Francesca. [There's sort of an authoritativeness when he echoes her with her own name, but it's painfully fond. Even if he's cringing into her hair.]
That was stupid. You make me stupid [But his arms tighten protectively around her.]
I'll take care of it.
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Her face presses into the arm under her head. He'll be able to feel her slow, lazy smile. ]
Bit ... messy, you know, but it felt nice. [ No messier than his first two orgasms, first over her stomach, then on her thighs. She thinks he even managed to get some on her sweater.
She even enjoys the sensation of him leaking out of her, squirming slightly. ] It's fine, really. I can get the pill.
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He moves his fingers, tracing them over the curve of her waist and hips. Soft, reverent touches like he can't believe she's really here.]
And it was worth it, for the record. I'd do it again.
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They're quiet for a while. She doesn't fall back asleep, but her eyes grow heavy. Buttery light seeps in tinted windows. Morning birds replace the hoots of owls.
She doesn't want to leave his arms. Not yet.
She turns her head, oddly somber. ]
Thank you for tonight. It was perfect.
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And yet, he lingers for way too long. Breathing in the smell of her hair and appreciating how nice it feels to have a warm body in his arms. That they can lie here in silence. Awake but not compelled to speak and risk losing a second of this.
Then, regrettably, they both wriggle into their clothes and slip back into the cab. There is some idle conversation, about the book and the town. Nate parks and jogs into the chemist, returning with a confident stride as he pulls himself up into the truck and offers her the small paper bag.
He drops her off and he feels terribly fucking sad.
After a quick trip home, a shower, a rushed breakfast and an even quicker drive in, Nate is striding into his classroom with a minute to spare. It's not like him. He likes to be early. He sets about setting himself up, glancing down at his computer and not watching the students entering the room.]
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She's lost to wandering thoughts, too, of the stranger, and a peculiar weight in her chest. One of already missing him, her mind buzzing excitedly whenever it strays to him -- which is frighteningly often.
When her head jerks up, it's at the sound of his voice. She freezes, her heart rate picks up, half-sure she summoned him, surprise and joy writ across her face. Tempted to stand and run down to him.
In the next instant, her mind begins to comprehend his presence.
She hadn't gotten his last name. She'd forgotten to ask, somewhere between the second beverage and his face between her legs.
In a clumsy moment of negligence, her pens take a tumble off the desk, crashing down the steps, turning several pairs of eyes her way. ]
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When it seems like he might manage to get through this, he's distracted by the clattering of pens rolling down the stairs. He's standing, so it only makes sense that he should pick them up.
It's when he's standing, pen in hand, that he realises where it came from. Who it came from. Jesus christ. He's frozen a moment and, in that moment, he does not look happy to see her. He needs to follow this through, so in total silence he walks to her desk and sets the pens down firmly.
He barely looks at her, turning away and continuing the lecture.]
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But she's acutely aware of how he doesn't acknowledge her at all, his eyes swimming past her in the crowd of faces. Difficult to ignore the growing trepidation in her gut, the slow gather of storm clouds. The sense she's done something wrong.
He's an efficient teacher, doesn't mince words. Something she finds refreshing. The lecture ends early. She lingers afterward, slower to let the rest to disperse. Alone, she picks her way down the steps, stopping to stand a polite distance away.
Clears her throat. ]
I'm -- [ she begins, her voice weak, fingers clutching her bag strap. Much like a chastised child. ] sorry. For disrupting you in the middle of your speech.
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He can't help notice her lingering, he sees her past the shoulders of a student approaching him with questions. When they leave, he's trying to gather his things as quickly as possible so he can avoid this interaction.
It pains him deeply to hear the tone of her voice, so different from this morning. He knows he's different too, he can't be that person here. He's yanking his jacket on as she speaks, a convenient excuse not to look at her.]
Don't worry about it. [It doesn't sound as reassuring as the words should be.]
I can't stick around. [He hopes that should make it quite clear, that they can't talk here. That he doesn't want to talk here.]
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